Taylor Swift

I must blog again. Remember when I blogged about this same thing a long time ago...I feel alone. All the time now. I'm being such a baby about it, I know. But really, it's getting to me. No one likes my music...no one wants to talk to me...people avoid me. And it's just the worst feeling. I don't have anyone who understands me. That's the worst, really. No one understands me...no one knows how I feel. And it's like no one cares. Ya know? When was the last time someone actually responded positively to something I said? When was the last time someone hugged me and actually meant it? I've gotten used to it. Isn't it sad when you've been hurting for so long that you can say "I'm used to it" like it's nothing new? I'm not bullied or anything, but people make me feel awful. I love myself so much, I am my own best friend. It just baffles me how no one else can love me as much as I love myself. How? I am the most fun, loving, happy person I know...what do they see that is undesirable? Really, honestly...I was having a talk with my sprit wolf Gina just a while ago. I said "If I cry, I cry alone. If I bleed, I bleed alone. If I die...I die alone." And she said to me "If you cry I cry. If you bleed I bleed. If you die, I die." It kinda made me feel like I have to go on. Because there are people depending on me. I've been listening to Sink Or Swim by Lewis Watson for hours now...good song to describe how I feel. I don't even know why I am telling all of you my feelings. I could just write it down in my diary. This may just me crying for attention. Maybe I just made someone else feel less alone. I don't know. But now it's out there. Thanks for reading, you guys.