*who you are is not what you did, you're still an innocent
What im about to tell you is really hard for me to say. im not saying this to get attention just so people can hear my story and maybe itll help someone else. so here we go:
For the last two years of my life, i have been cutter. I cut my wrists and arms to try and release pain. im only 15 and i already have scars that will last a lifetime. If something bad happens, thats my first instinct. I know its stupid but i dont know. Its just the first thing that comes to my mind. Ive always been a T.Swift fan and was listening to speak now when it first came out. i skipped one song that i didnt know would change my life. The song was innocent. i just passed over it. then one night my ipod was on shuffle and Innocent came on. as soon as the first lyrics started i was crying. throughout the whole song i bawled. the second verse was exactly how i felt. I was on the floor crying, and crying, and crying.before i had been at the point when i just didnt want to be here anymore. i wanted to dissapear. this son made me realize that it didnt matter what i had done. that my cutting didnt define me. I know that im innocent now. so If you actually read these, thanks taylor. you helped save my life with one song. i am extremely grateful.
Comments
On Sat, Jun 23, 2012 at 2:46 PM, Magzy25 said:
hahah awwwww ur welcome:) and yes God will help you.you just need to believe in yourself:)
On Fri, Jun 22, 2012 at 9:18 PM, KamKell said:
I still have days when i slip up. but taylor can't fix it alone. her music helps but the only way to overcome this is with God. Im still working on my relationship with him but i know if i keep pushing on i can do it. and @magzy25 thank you so much. you have no idea how much a little encouragement helps. @cassafrass88 if you need someone to talk to im here! ill be praying for you all!
On Thu, Jun 21, 2012 at 8:38 PM, IStoleUrSmile said:
I use to do the same thing up until a few months ago. Taylor Swift really helps me a lot :)
On Thu, Jun 21, 2012 at 7:14 PM, Magzy25 said:
awww stay strong, and yes Taylor really helps us and we can relate to most of her songs..at least i can:) so yes you are innocent and i know that was hard to tell everyone. You are better than that! Stay Beautiful and FEARLESS!:)
On Thu, Jun 21, 2012 at 6:57 PM, cassafrass88 said:
wow im so glad youve conquered that battle and that taylor helped you. im still fighting mine...