Expressing my feelings

Fri, Apr 25, 2014 at 7:56 PM By: Sparkleloves13

Hi I'm Angel, 18 years old from Philippines.
I've been a swifty since 2008, My friends and family do really supports me for that.
They knew how much I love Taylor and how she really mean to me.

These past few months I've been thinking alot about the RED TOUR live in Manila.
I'm not that rich and I just live my life with my needs and sometimes given a chance to have my wants. Luckily, after savings for the Red Tour, I am able to watch it live on June 6, 2014.
But But But But But But But........
something happened that made me crazy, I really don't know what to do now.
After I bought the ticket my mom was brought in the hospital and there we knew that she have a cervical cancer, she needs to be operated, a lot of therapies she needed. We need money for that.
I cried for days, I've been thinking of giving up the Red Tour and I will just sell my ticket (I can help a little to our expenses)
But still one month has past I'm still into the thoughts of
"Should I give it up? or maybe I can find some other ways, but how? I don't know... I can give it up, I know I can, I love Taylor Swift so much but my mom is much more important to me and I love her so deeply. BUT I'm also thinking about my childhood bestfriend whom I'll be coming with to Red Tour.. She's really excited and I don't want to ruin her excitement.. I don't want her to understand me, I want her to be happy, to experience that.... I don't know what to do now.."

My friends asked me "I know, you can give it up... But do you want it?"
My mom told me "It's a dream come true to you... you will see her live now"
Everybody's excited for me.... my siblings, my parents, my friends (Those who knows my problem)

Should I be excited too? yes I'm excited to see Taylor, But I kinda lost that excitement after I knew my mom condition.

Honestly, I've almost lost my interest in everything.... including Taylor. I'm not that fangirl unlike before BUT I'm sure to myself that I love her so much, Forever and Always. I want to thank her for being there always whenever I can't express my true feelings, whenever I don't want to talk to someone... Thanks to her music, it heals me. everytime I listen to her music, even in a small period of time I feel like I'm fine. I'm ok.. no worries... everything will be ok :) Thank you, you are my bestfriend :) my real bestfriend. Thank you for being an inspiration to me. Thank you for cheering me up whenever I'm down...

Thank, this blog helped me.
I'm at ease now atleast :P

Taylor I love you forever and always, I love you just how much I love everyone that means a lot to me.

Love, Love, Love
Angel from Philippines <3

  1. gretchen13 avatar

    On Sat, Apr 26, 2014 at 9:23 AM, gretchen13 said:

    Wow, you've got it rough. Is everything going ok? What is going to happen to your mom? Red was pretty amazing. I went in August because that is when she was here. If you ever need someone to talkto I am here. Let me know if you need anything. We are on opposite sides, but we can be friends. Hang in there and keep your mom safe. Go to Red and have an amazing time. We all deserve a little joy in life. I am going to add you as a friend.

  2. marvelousunbelievablefellaoverthere avatar

    On Sat, Apr 26, 2014 at 1:46 AM, marvelousunbelievablefellaoverthere said:

    Your family is so supportive, my family don`t at all. Hope for the best to you.

  3. Just_another_swiftie_13 avatar

    On Fri, Apr 25, 2014 at 7:59 PM, Just_another_swiftie_13 said:

    OMG !! I'm literally crying !!! ;( seriously ! Hope your mom gets well soon !!!

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