Expressing my feelings
Hi I'm Angel, 18 years old from Philippines.
I've been a swifty since 2008, My friends and family do really supports me for that.
They knew how much I love Taylor and how she really mean to me.
These past few months I've been thinking alot about the RED TOUR live in Manila.
I'm not that rich and I just live my life with my needs and sometimes given a chance to have my wants. Luckily, after savings for the Red Tour, I am able to watch it live on June 6, 2014.
But But But But But But But........
something happened that made me crazy, I really don't know what to do now.
After I bought the ticket my mom was brought in the hospital and there we knew that she have a cervical cancer, she needs to be operated, a lot of therapies she needed. We need money for that.
I cried for days, I've been thinking of giving up the Red Tour and I will just sell my ticket (I can help a little to our expenses)
But still one month has past I'm still into the thoughts of
"Should I give it up? or maybe I can find some other ways, but how? I don't know... I can give it up, I know I can, I love Taylor Swift so much but my mom is much more important to me and I love her so deeply. BUT I'm also thinking about my childhood bestfriend whom I'll be coming with to Red Tour.. She's really excited and I don't want to ruin her excitement.. I don't want her to understand me, I want her to be happy, to experience that.... I don't know what to do now.."
My friends asked me "I know, you can give it up... But do you want it?"
My mom told me "It's a dream come true to you... you will see her live now"
Everybody's excited for me.... my siblings, my parents, my friends (Those who knows my problem)
Should I be excited too? yes I'm excited to see Taylor, But I kinda lost that excitement after I knew my mom condition.
Honestly, I've almost lost my interest in everything.... including Taylor. I'm not that fangirl unlike before BUT I'm sure to myself that I love her so much, Forever and Always. I want to thank her for being there always whenever I can't express my true feelings, whenever I don't want to talk to someone... Thanks to her music, it heals me. everytime I listen to her music, even in a small period of time I feel like I'm fine. I'm ok.. no worries... everything will be ok :) Thank you, you are my bestfriend :) my real bestfriend. Thank you for being an inspiration to me. Thank you for cheering me up whenever I'm down...
Thank, this blog helped me.
I'm at ease now atleast :P
Taylor I love you forever and always, I love you just how much I love everyone that means a lot to me.
Love, Love, Love
Angel from Philippines <3