An Open Letter
This is an open letter. This is an apology, this is a thankyou, a love letter, a condolence. Take from it what you may, but the people who receive it will know who they are for. And I hope that they take from it what I meant to tell them.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I ever pressured you into doing something you didn’t want to. I'm sorry that I was so persistent in it happening that you felt like crap because of it. I'm sorry that it meant you didn't want to be with me anymore. Because love is unpredictable. Love is crazy, love is stupid, love makes people do ridiculous things to achieve it, maintain it, mend it. It's also probably why I'm still in love with you. You are still the best thing that's ever been mine. Seriously.
Thankyou. Thankyou for giving me so much when I can barely manage to scrape a pittance in return for what you have done. Thankyou for opening my eyes. Thankyou for saving me from myself.
I love you. And I know you mightn't want to hear those three words. But I will always be a violet crumble, and no matter how long, there will always be a part of me that you have a hold of, something no one else can. Know that I can let go of you, but I can't forget you.
I feel sorry for you. That you have to use your strong and powerful voice to be mean. I'm sorry that you can't find a way to use your talent for good. I love that you can be so honest. Sometimes the things we regret are the words better left unspoken. Words can break people into a thousand pieces, but they can also build someone up. I pray that you can use your words for good from now on, because your negative words have done nothing but hurt me. I'm paid to do something I love, I'm successful, I'm happy. And where has being mean got you?
Know that the second I can, I will leave you. I am destined for something great-- there is a part of me that knows I will change the world some day. I am going places and unless you pull yourself together and support me in this I will leave you behind. I don't want anything dragging me down. I have bigger dreams than you ever did and I will do more to accomplish them. I still love you. Doesn't change anything. Sorry.