Friends. (I would rant at Tumblr or something but I have people I know on there..)
You know those things that you want dearly to tell your one of best friends, but you can't? I'm having one of those moments right now. I have this friend. She's amazing, I love her so much, she makes me laugh and I honestly don't know why she hangs out with me. But I've always noticed this thing about her.
She can't help it.
She tends to attract boys very easily. Normally, I let this go, without any hint of annoyance, because life has handed her some pretty bad hands and she deserves confidence boosters and happiness more than me. For example, last year she was bullied so badly for something she did that she became depressed, and she has been pretty much since then. I can't understand this, as I'm a perpetually happy person (apparently that's one of the main reasons she likes me )
But today she started Facebooking and texting this dude I've known since I was little. I KNOW I should be happy for her, cos she doesn't have many friends because of the bullying thing and even fewer people she thinks she can trust, so the prospect of a new thing makes her happy, and therefore I should be happy too, because I love her when she's happy.
But my petty, petty brain HAS to see this as one step too far. It's not, and it's a horrible thing to think. But it's so damn frustrating that she still thinks she's ugly, that she's never gonna get married when she attracts boys to her like a magnet.
Maybeeee the guy just doesn't like me in a friend sort of way because I'm the little sister of one of his friends (I have no romantic feelings towards this guy, just so y'all know) and that would be weird. I LIKE to think that, but this is the one area in which my brain forces me to be realistic. He probably thinks I'm the annoying little sister. That I'm boring, and weird, and unlikeable in every way. I hate thinking like this.
She deserves to be happy. GGRRRRRR.
WOW that was a serious topic for a rant on a taylor swift fan page :') I'ma listen to long live now to cheer me up :L