I always do that with Taylor merch :(

I wouldn't say it's unhealthy. But, it's definitely not a good thing to make yourself so upset. It probably doesn't help to hear people say that it's just stuff and you can save your money and buy it later when it's something you want so much. I know I can get upset about wanting things like concert tickets, and hearing that kind of stuff usually doesn't help me. I hope you feel better soon.

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I wouldn't say it's unhealthy, though I wouldn't say it's a good thing, either. Just try not to think about it, or shoot, make your own Swiftie merch! I know it's not the same, but making your own T-Shirts or bracelets, whatever the case may be, shows some real spirit!
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what you could try doing is if you have a birthday/ holiday coming up where you get presents you could ask for something like an amazon gift card and you could use it to buy tay merchandise :) thats what I did because my parents don't like to get me very much stuff either, and I hope you feel happier soon!

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I do it with the American store, which in a way is worse, as even if I had the money I have no way of getting it without travelling to America, which kind of sucks. Alot. I hope you can get stuff at some point soon! And trust me, I know it's annoying but it is very possible to get stuff on eBay, I only started collecting merchandise last april and with so little available in the UK it was hard, and so much cool stuff wasn't being sold. But from eBay (to name a couple) I got a Fearless Shirt, Lovelovelove Bracelet, 3D tour book, Release week book and US Weekly bookazine, that's in the UK where there's barely anything, so when you have the money there will be plenty of opportunity to get stuff! xxxx

Oh, and I also bought the Hobo Bag from eBay, my most recent (and current favourite item!), it's worth a look, but wait until the great stuff comes along!

You're not the only one! I didn't go to the tour either and i want but don't have the merch. If you really desperately want it, you could save up :) xx

I do that often with clothes.